*Gives a little whimper*... So...there is ALOT of ranting I must do!

Firstly...

Well since starting back to school, I have obtained the four A-levels without I.C.T *Claps excitedly*. But... they weren't nessisarily the ones I wanted. I achieved my battle for English Literature! Yay! Though I am not happy in the class... but reasons for this will be in my second part of the rant. I also got Art! Great... but... Mathematics and Physics, the two that are my career... are not open for discussion. Physics was completely written off by my principle... (Shes not very nice). And well Mathematics... I had to make a big choice... either Maths or Art. =[ It wasn't easy for me... but my Maths teacher from GCSE, Kieran led me to Art as he felt I should do Maths and Physics together... so thanks to him, I am in my beloved Art class again. So in their place, I have taken Geography and Chemistry... Chemistry being one of my weaker subjects, and Geography at this moment in time being my strongest. So... basically... Physics and Mathematics is off of my agenda for two years... but I wish to do it next year... and drop one in school, yes it will be hard... but I hope to push myself. I just wish and hope that night tech will do physics next year... as the one year course is full time and during the day which I cannot do as I will be in school.... So yeah.... If I die, it's Physics fault!

Secondly...

Today in school, we were in English Literature, and our teacher Francis was teaching us scene five of "Anthony and Cleopatra". But for the last fifteen minutes, we had a discussion on why Romans had so many Gods. Then he asked who in our class believed in a God, a few put their hand up... and then he asked who didn't and I, Ciara and Roisin put our hands up. He then continued to ask a serise of questions to the believers... e.g. "What work does God do in the world everyday?" And they couldn't really answer him, and he then said "Then why believe in something you don't know is there, as you have no prove that he or she has done anything?" And they all said, "Faith." He then asked non-believers what we thought and why don't believe, and all three of us had very good, logical, reasonable, and comprehendable explanations, but by the last five minutes, the debate was getting heated, and Francis clamed us all down and said "If God is real, and I am not saying he or she isn't. If he or she is, why did he or she not stop Hitler or anything like that happening?" All believers couldn't answer... and we non-believers said fate and karma. Then he continued with, but how do you who do not believe in God, know what is right and wrong, how do you have values when you have no ten commandments to go by? How can you disagree with what Hitler done when you have no-one to give the rules? And so basically you'll burn in hell if God is real because of it."
Now that really ****ed me off... He was basically saying, as we have no ten commandments, we dunno' what is right and wrong, we don't know what our values are, and that we cannot say anything is correct or incorrect as we cannot possibly comprehend it. And that because of that, we believe what Hitler did was right, killing his own people, trying to be God. And that we will burn in hell with no real direction. I mean OH MY WORD! It's our choice, not his, we are independant enough to make our own fate... I don't believe in the after life, reincarnation or anything of the sort... and I make the choice, not him, so why say something so bloody well sadistic because we choose to believe what we want!

Lastly...

A certain member of my friend group has annoyed me for his immaturity, his lack of reponsibility and his cruelty towards another member because he came to visit his friends. I am very very angry about it, and I don't want friends who act like ****heads, like he did today, and does on a regular basis. I barely know the gut he was talking about, but even by seeing him, I can tell hes not a bad person, yet my friend verbally attacks him and a few other people when their not their to defend themselves. It's just being purly bitchy, like a girl... and yes I can be bitchy when I want to be, but I am not right now as I have already confronted him on neumourous occassions about this problem. Yet he refuses to change his attitude towards certain people. And I am afraid I am going to get so angry one day that I will ignore him completely to the extent that hes no longer realivant. Today when he said the person shouldn't be there and has he not realised hes a reject yet, I was sitting down with my bag, feeling very unwell and sickly. And the second I heard that... I stood stright up, looked directly at him, and said "Why are you being so cruel when hes not here to defend himself, don't stoop so low (insert name here)." And moved to another table. My best friend Ciara moved with me. But two others with him said "Whats her problem." I just ignored them form that point onwards. Then Ciara went up to go and get juice, where he then got up and came to sit down at the table I moved to, and I got stright up and went outside out of his way. Ciara followed after me, and we stood outside talking about how he was acting, and how it was inoppropriate and how he should be mature as hes older than us etc. Then he came outside where I got really angry at him saying that he done nothing wrong, and of course I rebuked him. When the bell rang for the end of lunch I was reluctant to go in and get my bag and art folder, but did hastily and walked stright past all three of them and quickly stormed off. I dunno' how I will react tomorrow. I know I barely know the person he was verbally attacking, and that it wasn't really my business about him not liking the person. But I am still not gonna' stand back and watch him act like an cowardly asshole who wouldn't say it to the persons face, and the fact he said it infront of me knowing how I would react... it's just being malcious and down right pathetic.

Oks... ranting over... =]


Sketch book work I have to do:

- Guy drawing.
- Model drawing.
- Eye drawing.
- Victoria Beckham.
- Sloth.
- Some colour studys.
- Flower.
- Model with flowers.
- Eye drawing.
- Vincent Valentine.
- Painting of woman.

(Bold is started, intalics is almost done, Strike is done.)

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